I have found, lately, that I’m feeling stuck. Immovable. It’s not that I’m not going places, that things aren’t happening and that I’m not an active participant in my life. Because I am. No, what I mean is: Have you ever had so many projects going on at the same time, that you lose the “forest for the trees?” Like a deer in headlights, I have just stopped.
Now, don’t get me wrong–I love Diablo 3–it’s a great game, despite Blizzard Entertainments attempt to remove everything that was awesome about Diablo 2 from it. I’m still playing the game. I’m having fun doing it. But what am I not doing?
I’m not writing. I’m certainly not blogging, until right now, of course. I keep saying “yes” to things I should say “no” to. I need a mental cleanse. I need to find my bearings. To come up with a new schedule for feeding my brain and for vegging out with my hardcore Barbarian, hardcore MP10 Witch Doctor, and MP10 Wizard. ‘Cause, they’re awesome. 🙂
Unfortunately, this sounds easier than I’m finding it to actually be. My son keeps my quite busy, which I don’t mind. He’s awesome! He gave me a thumbs up for the first time the other day. I felt accomplished and I hadn’t done anything. How awesome is that? And yes, he is one of the things I said “Yes” to, but definitely not one of the things I shouldn’t have. It is a huge blessing to have him in my life and I find that he’s teaching me more about me than I’m teaching him, well, anything.
So, I’ve decided (Just now, as I wrote the last paragraph–which was a process: I paced and everything.) that I’m going to treat my writing time like it’s work time. This should be obvious, and something you’d think I would be doing anyway, but I haven’t. I’ve been treating it as “my time.” It is something I love to do, so it couldn’t possibly be work, right?
So not true.
I’m going to start with prioritizing my projects and then work on them as close to “one at a time” as I can. We’ll see how this goes over the next few weeks. I’ll keep you posted. Thanks for “listening.” It helped me figure out my problem. You know, saying it.
Now, back to Diablo. 😉